Open Letters

Dear Pa

They called me this morning. They told me that you moved. I expected you to move but the news still came as a shock to me. I had lumps in my throat, I was swallowing my tears because I had no idea when I would see you again. I sincerely hope that you are feeling better, that you are happy and not just content and that you will always remember how loved you are. As I said, I’m not sure when our paths will cross again but I look forward to that moment where you will embrace me like you used to and when things will make complete sense again.

Love

Charissa

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Dear Charissa

Thank you for writing to me. I know that the news came as a shock to you but I don’t want you to think about our last encounter, I want you to hold onto the idea of our next one.

I have been keeping up to date with your life and I am proud of what you have accomplished thus far. I want you to remember that I was always third in my grade (we were only three but that’s not the point) so you clearly got your brains from me.

Know that in all you do, your name always echoes in my prayers. I love you so much.

Love

Pa

***

Dear Pa

It was so weird but I felt your spirit today.

I heard you talking to me and you wanted me to give the family a message. I gave it to them and it brought them so much peace. They needed to hear your words, I needed to hear your words.

***

I meditated this morning and I could feel your presence around me. I had a vision of you standing in the church, listening to a powerful sermon. You had the biggest smile on your face. I wondered when I would see your smile again.

***

I told Ma that you wanted her to speak to you. She was comforted by the fact that you reached out to her…for her. I’m not sure when her ink will grace paper but her ink has not run dry yet.

***

I saw your body today, I saw you walking to the church. I went to Ma and wiped her tears and told her that you were waiting for her.

***

I have felt your presence several times since. Is it really you? Has it always been you? I miss you so much. I miss your laughter, your hugs, how you bit your tongue when you were angry. I miss your words of wisdom and your ability to tell stories.

I miss your love.

P.S. I wrote you a poem, I wonder if you heard it. I wonder if you felt anything as I was writing because you were engraved in every word.

I love you.

Love

Charissa

***

Dear Charissa

It was me, it has always been me.  I am within you.

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Thank you for giving the family my message. I knew they would trust and believe you. There are still several messages I want to give to you but I know you are not yet ready.

***

I enjoyed the service indeed. I was fond of how the priest described death as people sleeping. I can relate to that, I have been sleeping peacefully ever since.

***

Ma has always been my special Rose. She has always been so delicate yet her thorns were powerful. She is the most precious flower God could have picked for me.

***

I heard your poem. I felt your poem. I hear all of you. I feel all of you. I am within all of you. I hope that you will find peace. That acceptance will know your name. That your faith in Him will only increase in abundance. That your Love for His will, will never waiver.

P.S. Thank you all for continuing my tradition. It is always better to give than to receive.

***

Rest peacefully Pa.

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