A Manifesto To Myself

I promise myself that I will never leave fractions of me outside doors that struggle to welcome me into their rooms. I will never allow myself to not be accepted as a whole. I will never allow my presence to be in rooms that aren’t strong enough to carry my weight and the weight on my shoulders.

I promise myself that the mirror will no longer be my enemy. The mirror will be used as a tool of reflection not on how I currently look but on the journey I have been on. The mirror will be a reminder of how far I have come. The mirror will be a reminder of growth, of pain and of self-love. The mirror will no longer be a tool to break me down.

I promise myself that the person who loves me the most will be me. I will not seek that love from anyone but myself. I promise that I will realize that I have always and will always be my greatest source of self-love. I am the Soil of The Earth, how can I not love myself?

I promise that I will never make a Home in my soul and being for people who only wanted to have a viewing of me. I refuse to be loved half-heartedley and unconvincingly. I refuse to seek love from anyone who is too weak  to carry my name in their mouths.

I promise myself that I will nurture my friendships and family bonds. I will continuously fertilize its soil. I will continuously ensure that it is watered enough. I will continuously ensure that I am the light that it requires.

I promise that my worth will never be externally validated. I will not allow the words of others to overshadow the power of my own. I will not be chiseled by tongues that are blunt. I will not be broken down… I will not be broken down again.

I will never expect anybody to complete me. I will never expect to complete anyone. I will never view myself as a puzzle that is missing one piece when my very existence and ability to survive constantly puzzles people. They are yet to figure me out.

Myself: Whole, Self-love, Loved, Nurtured, Valid, Complete. 

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