“I owe myself so many apologies”

I owe myself an apology for allowing people to break my heart numerous times

And in turn for guarding my heart

For people that have body shamed me and for allowing their words and actions to dictate my outlook on my own body

For not respecting my body

For ever doubting my worth

And taking myself for granted

For not accepting my imperfections as it is those imperfections that have molded me

I owe myself an apology for not being comfortable in my own skin

For not carrying myself with all this melanin

I owe myself an apology for remaining in friendships that provide me with no growth

I owe myself an apology for allowing people’s opinions of me to dictate how I feel about myself

I owe myself an apology for being so conscious about my accent

And for allowing people’s perceptions of me to change my accent

I owe myself an apology for being so selfless and for allowing people to take advantage of that

I owe myself an apology for allowing people to make me believe that my race is a burden

I owe myself an apology for ever forgetting that I am the soil of the Earth

Feature image taken by Farrel de La Rosa

 

 

 

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